Post # 100

Well ladies and gentleman, I'd like to thank all my faithful followers and stalkers alike (ya- -I WISH) for hanging on with me as I ride this sometimes rocky journey of mine. Rocky as it is at times, it is a walk in the park compared to the old road I was on. I have enjoyed this online part of my recovery. I welcome all comments and opinions. It's amazing to me that some of the people like myself, who have been to hell and back through the years of abusing ourselves with alcohol and drugs, give the best advice you could ever get. It is greatly appreciated and I am so grateful that I have found this online recovery community.

What else am I grateful for?

I am grateful for the new attitude and new outlook I now have in life.

I am grateful for getting through last week without verbally or physically injuring former family members for the way that they treated my son.

I am grateful that I am FINALLY letting go some of that ANGER and RESENTMENT that I felt towards some people last week. OH ITS STILL THERE, but it lessens each and every day the more I pray for it to be lifted.

I am grateful that I had an awesome meeting at my home group tonight. GUESS WHO gets to lead the meeting for the next 3 months? Yours Truly.

I WAS NOT grateful for having to lead the meeting and did NOT want to attend tonight. HOWEVER, I was grateful once the meeting was over and it went without a hitch. WHEW.

Blast-O-Butter Popcorn.

I am grateful for the opportunity to be able to GO ON VACATION next week! We are heading to Lake George, NY. Any suggestions on good lodging would be welcomed and appreciated. Either that or I throw a dart at my monitor and that's where the Queen shall lay her head for the week.

I am grateful that you all didn't RUN FOR THE HILLS when you read the craziness in last weeks posts.

You all have a kick ass evening. I know I will. QUEEN......OUT

FYI-I hit spell check and they were NO MISSPELLINGS found. Maybe there IS hope for those old bruised and battered brain cells.

I've Come To The Conclusion That....

• I have been ridiculously obsessing and getting pissy about a wedding that will be FULL of people that I wouldn't want my worst enemy stuck to have to sit down and eat, drink and be merry with.


• That although I still carry the hurt about the ex stepdaughter, I have done all that I can to make amends and it's on her (and God) now. It's out of my hands. Whew.


• I cannot send my son to the wedding in the tie-dyed *wife-beater* t-shirt that I wanted too. Dammit.


• If you are going to take a COMMITMENT(as in service work/or job within your home group) in Alcoholics Anonymous then make sure to FOLLOW THROUGH with it! (you KNOW what they say about half measures, right?)


• I have the best home group ever. If you don't feel the same way about your home group, maybe you should look around for another one. Just a suggestion.


• Putting down that effin drink was the best decision I have ever made.


• I am hopelessly addicted to *bejeweled blitz* on facebook and may start my own 12 step program for myself and others.


• My sister made the right decision when deciding to come and live with yours truly. I have not seen her this happy in who knows when. This in turn makes me happy.


• Little sister and I are being compared to Oscar and Felix from the Odd Couple and not only is that hilarious, but it is 100% TRUE. Go ahead, guess which one I am! HA


• Sister and I have the best time together. Especially late at night. Like really late. We we doing this last night while going through my underwear drawer. Yes, my underwear drawer. We found everything from grandma panties all the way through a thong that says *eat me* on the front. IT was the shit until my son walked in on us acting like a couple of teenagers. It was FUN I TELL YOU!


• That I REALLY need to go through that drawer and weed out all the *inappropriate* underthings. HAHA. Or NOT.

Well y'all, its been a hoot and a half but Queens gotta go, QUEEN......OUT

Tuesday Tidbits

• I feel lots and lots of gratitude lately
• The more I see suffering the more grateful I become
• I don't have much, but I do have ME back and that is a miracle-it truly is
• I saw POS today in line at the bank. He looks awful
• BUT he is on day 7 so I hope that works out for him
• He said to me "I was having seizures" to which I replied "No REALLY?"
• He actually GOT INSURANCE for my son, without me having to ask or force him
• THAT is another miracle
• I get to speak at my Home Group tonight. I am always nervous but it needs to be done
• My boss stuck up for me to HIS boss today. Miracle # 3
• I'm glad I can be a trusted employee these days
• My son seems to be content, no drama-no anger. Thank you abilify.
• I am happy that spring is here, but not liking my grass growing faster than a speeding bullet
• Your Queen does NOT mow grass-she just doesn't
• That is where a house bitch would come in handy. I am still interviewing so keep the applications coming people.

With that I wish you all a great night, I'm off to get snacks for my drunks. QUEEN....OUT

Its About Time

I am feeling so stinkin' blessed today...somebody pinch me! It must be a dream. Naw don't pinch me yet.....I'm not done feeling yet!

I just got some GRRRRRREAT news from a family member. She has finally found a way OUT of a VERY dysfunctional household. My dearest, sweetest loving sister has found a place of her very own. YAY. It's not happening till June-but I do see it happening. She waited for the right opportunity and it arrived today and I couldn't be happier. God is so good.

My son is doing well. I got a call from his guidance counselor today and he is doing much better in class. He is putting out a good effort and that is HUGE compared to the last update. He is doing well at home as well. Between the new med (Abilify) and the warm weather he is a new kid. We take his illness like I do mine, one day at a time. It is much more manageable this way.

I am going to my Beach House meeting tonight. I love my homies. I see them elsewhere, in other meetings and around town but this is where we all get together and it is the absolute best group in AA. If you don't think that about YOUR home group-find another one. We have a business meeting tonight and that is usually pretty interesting. Tonight we elect new people for different jobs. Last time this happened one member freaked out because he couldn't chair. He's calmed down a bit in the last few weeks. We shall see if "him" comes out to play tonight. I will TRY to keep my mouth shut this time. I said TRY. So, I shall blog atcha's later. Have a blessed evening y'all. QUEEN....OUT