Hey Y'all

Its been a bit since my last post, I have been keeping real busy. I got my new appliances and floor (pics soon).YAY! What a HUGE difference in the floor. OMG. And it was so easy to do. Well with my SIL helper it was a breeze. She is a go getter and a good influence for me. Hard to believe that she is POS's sister. She even says so herself, in fact most of his siblings say that, haha. Anyway it came out really nice and I just need to trim it up a bit and done. My slumlord came to pick up the *like new* appliances and I stood in my back doorway taking pictures of him as he loaded them onto his truck. No way I'm goin' on Judge Judy without the proper evidence. See you in court buddy, hehe.

Tonight was the Beach House picnic (aka Woodstock). It actually went quite well. Boy when we drunks sober up we can throw quite the partay! The food was spectacular and clean up is a breeze when everyone pitches in. The meeting was great as always. I am happy to be done with my busy week and back to a bit of normal life.

Speaking of life I have been thinking about how calm and serene everything has been lately. Even with all the chaos last week, all in all I have got it pretty good. I have next to ZERO stress and when I see or hear about someone else suffering I kind of feel guilty. I don't know why, I just DO. Especially when it is someone close to me, like my sister for example. She is going through some heavy stuff right now, but there is not much more I can do. She has to make her own decisions about what she needs to do. I think of the serenity prayer often. Accept the things I cannot change. Acceptance is huge. I KNEW I was an alcoholic, knew I belonged in AA but nothing happened until I accepted it. So it's getting late, I just wanted to check in. I will try to get pics up soon. So adios amigos......QUEEN....OUT

Keep It Simple Stupid

Oh MY GOODNESS!! I have had quite the evening. Tonight I attended my favorite meeting in town, the one that got me sober. I raised my hand at one of the first meetings and volunteered to be the coffee maker and that saved my ass. Its great if you go to meetings on a regular basis, but if you don't get INVOLVED in the program chances are that you will probably not make it. I suppose that is my opinion and like Syd mentioned in his post today, take what you want out of what you read here and leave the rest. But I have seen it with my very own eyes, the people who get involved-chairing, treasurer, GSR, greeter, coffee-WHATEVER-generally do well when combined with working the oh so important steps.
So anyway, the actual meeting went well and then there was a business meeting afterward. This meeting was to discuss a picnic that we are planning at the Beach House where we hold our meeting. A picnic. Pretty simple right? Well get a room full of alcoholics and addicts planning it and the next thing you know you would think we were planning something like Woodstock for chrissake. They were all cross talking, shouting, arguing and getting nothing accomplished. I took my buddy in recovery (the one who wants me but will never have me hehe) aside and said "Let's make a run for it-- we're so outta here" lol. And we left. And it felt good. When and if they have Woodstock I will make a potato salad, open the building for them and that's it. End of discussion for me! Way to complicate a hot dog meeting folks. I could not get outta there fast enough. I like to get involved like I said above BUT when everyone is getting all worked up for nothing I just choose to let them all try to figger that shit out on their own. YOU try telling 20 or so drunks that they are wrong, or that they should just keep it simple. It can get ugly and I have had enough ugly for a lifetime THANK YOU VERY MUCH. It was amusing sitting in the back and watching them for like a minute and then I did what I had to do and now I am home chuckling about it. I'll be sure to let y'all know how it turns out. hehe.
My son is doing OK, but his Doctor wants to run some tests. J is NOT A HAPPY CAMPER about this. He has NEVER had blood drawn and has informed me that he WILL NOT be letting anyone draw blood. Nope, not happenin. OY. If anyone has any advice on how to get a kid to submit to a blood test, please share. He's too damn big to hold him down, and I know my kid-he WILL fight it. He really needs the blood work and I need a solution. I will pray on it, and I will get an answer. He also needs a MRI (which I THINK is a brain scan). That is painless but could be scary for him. I don't know. But he is getting tremors (he calls them mini seizures) and it needs to be checked. He also gets the "shakes" as he calls them and that is what the blood work is for. So any advise from my fellow bloggers would be greatly appreciated. Between God and you all, I'm sure I will find a solution.

Gratitude list Du jour:

• That you stopped by to read my ramblings, for that I am grateful....


• for my 1244th day of abstinence from mind altering substances....


• to have a few really great friends in recovery....


• that I have the next TWO days off from work....


• that I know madness when I see it and know when it's time to scoot the hell outta there....


• I am grateful that I got a new boss at work and he's a pretty cool dude....


• for my not so little guy, J-He's a handful but I wouldn't trade being a mom for anything....


• a great job, and supervisors who know I give them my best when I'm there....


• family....


• a car that is all MINE sitting in the driveway....

I could go on all night but that will do for now

Have a good night you buncha alkies, addicts and al-anoners. And please remember to K.I.S.S.!

Queen....OUT

What a Fucked up Monday

Just as the title says, today was horrendous at work. WOW. And me without my emergency stash of happy pills. What a frggin' nightmare. I have been "chosen" to train a manager. If you want to be in management in my company, you have to work in every department and learn everything about that department. Great concept, but I have a routine people. I find it very distracting to stop and tell/show this guy everything I'm doing and still get all my work done in the time allotted. Its impossible actually. I am a bookkeeper in a very busy store and all I can think about while I'm doing all this splanin' is how much more work I need to get done before I depart for the day and I have this shadow lurking over my shoulder watching my every move. Have I mentioned that my office is kind of on the small side and this trainee has the worst breath I have EVER encountered? I worked with him a few years ago, and when he came into my office I would find something to do on the other side of the room until he left. Come on~He has since married and had a child and you think his bride would do something about this issue. For chrissake, how could she NOT notice and/or have him DO SOMETHING about it? Enough of that before I hurl chunks all over my keyboard. Good thing he's only gonna be here for TWO MORE WEEKS~serenity now, serenity now.
I also had this woman come in to the store to discuss a check of hers that was returned. She has got to be our star check bouncer~I counted at least 30 on record with us. She brings in paperwork from her bank telling me she got charged $20.00 for a check of hers that cleared on the SECOND TIME that we deposited it. The first time it did not. When your check doesn't clear you get charged-she knows this. She could send her grandchildren to college on the money she has wasted on paying bank fees over the years. She knows there is a charge and still continued to argue with me. I gave her $20.00 to get her out of my face. She was not taking no for and answer and I just wanted to be rid of her. Although, she did make me chuckle when Mr Trainee butted in with a comment and she looked at him and said "I wasn't talking to you, I am talking to her. Who ARE you anyway? Are you a manager or something?" hehe. He said nope, sorry. She told him he needed to mind his own business. She was feisty. But I was sooooooo busy and not in the mood to continue arguing with her. I know times are hard, but this woman has been doing this for YEARS. It was worth twenty bucks to make her go buh bye.
On a happier note, I reunited with 3 cousins on Sunday night. I found them on Facebook and we all got together. What a great time. We are planning a family picnic for the summer. A cousin volunteered his home (sucker!) and it will happen! We used to have one every year when all of our parents were alive. We all want to start this tradition again. I brought my son with me and he was able to meet some cousins(second)that he never knew existed and he actually got along great with them. My son doesn't take to new people to well and when he did it made momma a happy girl. The cousin that is having the picnic is in recovery and so is his wife! How cool is that?!!! I see his wife frequently at meetings, she's a sweetie and she was very kind to Jonathon and told him he is welcome anytime to come over and hang with her boys.
So I will go in with a fresh new attitude tomorrow, no sense in having the crazy check bouncing lady or the halitosis king ruin another day. I will not forget the magical happy pills tomorrow. Nope. Queen...OUT