Sunday, May 17, 2009

Sunday Secrets


I knew that word would SUCK you in. hehe. I got NO secrets, not anymore. Well I do have one, kinda. Yesterday was Queens' Birthday and to be honest with you it was not a big deal W~ H~ A ~T ~S~ O~ E~ V ~E ~R. I spent most of it SLEEPING. I took the day off and slept. Until my sister stopped in and woke me to present me with some gifts (thanks Sista). I think (I know) that my sleeping habits lately are due to depression. I'm on medication for it and for the most part its under control. I use sleep to escape. Better than how I used to escape, but still not good. This time of the year is a trigger for me. I lost my Mom in May and I had a pretty devastating, life-changing event happen in May a few years ago. I hardly ever think of it anymore but it has continued to affect me. This too shall pass. It will and I will be fine, I'm certainly not going to drink over it. I am on my way to a meeting, so I will close with some good old gratitude.

Today I am grateful for~


  • being one year older, and still sober. There was a time when I REALLY thought I would not see 40. I turned 45 yesterday.

  • working 6 hours of double time today

  • a dependable vehicle to get me where I need to be

  • a kick-ass sister~love my Vivvy

  • a great kid, who is becoming quite a helpful and loving young man

  • my sober friends, in real life and the cyber-sober ones too

  • yet ANOTHER new boss, who is kind to me and has kids too~so he get it that sometimes I need to take off with a minutes notice

  • my bills are slow but sure getting paid off. Funny how that works huh?

  • a friend who gifted me with clothing that no longer fits her son, boy did that come in handy!

  • my friend Heather is back home with her children, taking it slow. One minute at a time-but that's OK.

Good night to you all, Happy Sober Sunday~QUEEN.....OUT

10 comments:

Joe said...

The meeting is a fantastic idea. Great gratitude list, sorry to hear your months of May are rough.

Pam said...

45???
what a baby.

Kristin H. said...

Happy birthday to you.
Happy birthday to you.
Happy birthday dear Queeneeneeeeeeeeeeee!
Happy birthday to YOUUUUU!!!!!!!!

((bug hug))

Sarah said...

Glad you're staying sober. I hate depression. Seriously.

Rosie Hawthorne said...

Happy Belated Birthday, Queenneenee!
I hate depression too.
Hang in. One day at a time.
You're an awesome bitch and I admire you so much!

Patty said...

Glad you spent your day doing what YOU wanted. Happy birthday to you!

Hurricane Heather said...

You're awesome.
Happy birthday.
You deserve a sleep-in day!

Lou said...

How awesome your son is doing so well! Hope you don't stay in that funk too long.

You and Gabi Moonlight have really made me think about my mom and how much I love her.

Syd said...

Happy Birthday belatedly. It sounds as if you spent it doing what you liked to do.

Rosie Hawthorne said...

This:

"I lost my Mom in May and I had a pretty devastating, life-changing event happen in May a few years ago. I hardly ever think of it anymore but it has continued to affect me. This too shall pass."

Queenie, don't know what happened, but apparently you do think of it still and it still continues to affect you. This too, shall NOT pass. Sorry. Just buttin' in here. Nunya beeswax, Rosie.

I will shut up now. Peace.


Oh... Happy Birthday!!!!!