Thursday, March 19, 2009

Sharing with the Boys


Well, I'm home from our commitment. It went really well, considering I was a nervous wreck. I find that the more I share my story the easier it gets. Our chairman for the night was Kerry, the guy who wants me but will never get me (hehe). I usually tell him before hand whether or not I will be sharing or not. Last time we went to this treatment center, I told him flat out NO - I just wanted to get a feel for the place and maybe next time. Well tonight was next time. I didn't give him the thumbs up or down before the meeting started. He called a few of the other ladies first, who did a fantastic job. All I could think was -oh geez, I'm gonna get up there and sound like an ass now, compared to them! Kerry took his life into his own hands and called me up to share. He is a brave man. I got up there and OMG - it was quite humbling to get up there and tell 110 men my story. From what I heard from my group I sounded good, but I of course didn't think so. I didn't know a single one of them, so I figured why the hell not. Just get up there and do it. One of the men in our group told me afterward he was watching the "crowd" and I had their attention. They were listening, which is why we do this. Hopefully someone got something out of what I said. A number of them came up and thanked me for sharing, which was nice. One of them was so kind that I ended up giving him a bag of candy-LMAO. I was like ohhh, thanks for being so kind to me-Here you get a prize LMAO. He was grateful, they don't get too many treats where they're at.
So all in all it was a great night. One of our convoy got pulled over for running a stop sign on the way home and another sober friend called me because they got a flat on the highway on the way home from another meeting. I was sober tonight and I was able to help them out after I dropped off my carload at their homes. I didn't think twice about going to get them, because that's what we do for real friends today. When I was out there I wouldn't have answered my phone, never mind drive out and pick your butt up off the side of the highway. Hell, no. But I do these things today because I am sober. I will sleep good tonight, after thanking my Higher Power for keeping me safe and sober for another day. Cool. Queen....OUT

5 comments:

dAAve said...

That is a very humbling and fulfilling experience. Thanks for your service.

Gledwood said...

I went to an NA meeting in rehab, it was really good. But while I longed for one every day of the week, we only had one a week, which really did my head in...

Lou said...

All hail the queen! Do you always carry bags of candy? Not that that is a bad thing.

Syd said...

It sounds like you had a good time and did a great job. Good for you. Have a great day.

steveroni said...

Loved this blog entry from beginning to end. Thank you.